My mind tends to fall into grooves and I lately I experience a lot of anxious thoughts. This is exhausting! Meditating helps me acknowledge it though- and when I know I am doing something I can change what I’m doing. I also tend to go into list making mode when I’m meditating so I wanted to create a meditation where I can allow myself permission to actually let this type of thinking happen. The underlying emotion turns from a tightness in my chest to a sense of freedom and openness. What happens for you?!
Note: When the instruction is “bring your attention to your thinking” notice if thoughts come faster or slower. Is it irritating or peace inducing? I know, I’m weird, but this is really fascinating to me. At first, when I give my mind the freedom to think I just want to run away, stop meditating. It’s uncomfortable to sit there and watch all my anxious thoughts come up. But when I stick with it and stay with my breath I am able to turn towards the thinking mind and figure out how my mind works and the knots slowly start to unravel. Does this happen to you too? I’m curious about your experience.
Advice: turn toward the discomfort when you see it rear its ugly head. Face it, don’t run away.
The workload of most people is grueling at times, and we can’t always change the actual circumstances we find ourselves in. It’s a tragedy for us to wish away these precious, once-in-a-lifetime days, yet I know I’m not the only one who has wasted time with thoughts like, “If only Grace weren’t se cranky all the time”, “if only I could sleep through the night with out having to deal with a crying baby”, “if only Brandon would help me out more.” When we fall into negative thought patterns like these, we run the risk of living life through “someday” lenses. We push our happiness and joy away. I hope this meditation helps you to pay attention to your thoughts rather than believe them. It helps me anyway.