So, two weeks have come an gone. How do you feel? Are you keeping up on your three pages a day? How about your artist date? What did you do on your date? Any discoveries from your morning pages? One thing I am discovering is that I have a lot of pent up feelings from my first few months of being a new mom. Most moms I know feel brought to their knees in gratitude and love for the gift of motherhood. And I would never trade the role of being Grace’s mom for the world. Yet, as my morning pages have taught me, I don’t always experience motherhood the way I want.
Now, I know that morning pages aren’t intended to be shared (and I don’t WANT to share them) I just want to express how profound they can be. They have taught me that I need reserves of inner calm so that I can face a day being attached to a two year old. They help remind me that I can replenished AND pour out my life for those I love most.
My morning pages have also taught me how much my life resembles the movie ‘Groundhog Day.’
I know that this is just a season of my life, but seeing it written out day after day in my journal is actually empowering. It’s like a little spirit came into my hand and wrote the words, “The gifts I give are fundamentally different when I give from a full well versus a dry tank. The gifts, themselves, are different. I show up differently in my life and in my relationships.”
What did your morning pages teach you?